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Maybe that is why I can’t ever go back to You. i have too many Words to tell … how much you mean to me but they are just words. My actions proved the opposite. I’m forever finding love to replace the one you place in me. i was cruel. i admit that. i gave you Love yet i took it away. i had to take away something beautiful because I’m selfish and care too much about myself .. I can't erase you from my Past i cant delete you from my mind all i can do is say goodbye i cant pretend you were never here i cant fake like it didn’t hurt when you disappeared i refuse to use a fake old grin but then again I’ll never win... I cant pretend that I don’t Care i cant pretend that you are near so i guess ill just pretend to say Goodbye but ill Always love you.. there were moments we laughed-and-cried,We always stood by each othar side those Many days we Spent together will stay in my life forever and ever... And then SomeDay You will be sorry,When You're Free...Memories Will Remind You That We Are Meant To be :)    
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Sunday, May 30, 2010

A Stroke Of Words

Love, What This Word Stand For Us, Or Why

We Always Care For This Word, The Person

Who Give Us Love We Can't Imagine Our Life

Without That Person, But All Made Me Think,

Why Me Need This, When Love Left Me ALways

And My Pain Stand With Me Always. Care For

Them Who Can Give You Some Thing,

Not For That Who Snatch Every Thing From You.

I Actually Loved You

Slowly You Become A Memory
And Start To Fade Away
As Each Week That Passes By
I'm Starting To Feel OK

I Cared About You Dearly
I Treated You Like Gold
I Waited For The Same
But Was Left Out In The Cold

You Were Mean And Selfish
You Treated Me Like Dirt
You Dug Deeper And Deeper
Just To Get Me Hurt

After Everything You Did
Your Wish Didn't Come True
You Will Always Remain A Memory
But Never Forget I Actually Loved You!

I Can Write


I Know I Can Write My Emotions Any Time,

Any Where, When Ever I Want, From Where

I Want, But Some Times Written Doesn't Work

You Never Saw The Feeling WHich I Have When I Wrote

All This:|

Some Time Writing Doesn't Work :

Miles Away

I Am Where Exactlly You Left Me

You Are The One Who Moved On

Its Your Decision Yours Life,

Mine Was Nothing Remain Like

Whenever I Think About That Moment,

Broked Up In Tears And Middle Of The Pain.

You Went On Miles Away From Me

I'm The One Who Wanna Come Near To Miles :)
Thursday, April 29, 2010

God made me just to be Unhappy ?


Hearing words piercing my heart


Expressing abyssal pain

Sharing fearful inner thoughts

Broken spirit still remains



Soft whispers became icy arrows

Puncturing a delicate target

My drawn lips, tightened bow

Projectile voice, tipped with regret



Placed upon a pedestal

Spitting accusations of wrong

Scorning you for my past

By my side, is where you belong



Toxic words more damaging

Than a physical strike

Killing loving life essence

Faster than the third reich



Splintering what we've built

Slicing beauty to the core

Filled with heavy sorrow

Hope to repair what I tore



Crystal heart has been shattered

By your testimate of pain

Love from a magenta gem

Attempting to maintain ..



~ The smiles now have faded, as has the sun; A lifetime without you has now just begun :) ~

The joy unfold


Each time I think of u


My head turns towards the sky

Shining blue to my gaze

Seeing ur face above so high!



A smile blooms on my lips

With happiness comes unknown

Wondering why is this reflection

The reflection of this joy unfold



Do I know the reason?

Is it b’coz I miss u so?

For every cloud passing by

Brings me a message like spy



The message with ur memories

Ur laughter that lingers my ears

The love promised by u

Which lasts for many years?

Wanting You ...


Clad in the sweat of desire


Expressing u my heavy mood

With my spirit raising high

Within the emotions I brood



Closing my eyes in imagination

That paints the picture of thee

Bringing the dream before my eyes

With u tightly holding me



As my desire mounting more

Wanting u more for real

Crying aloud ur lovely name

For the scars in my heart to heal



Touching the summit of satisfaction

Panting with breathe I exhale

Opening my eyes to the reality

Craving for u, in my sad tale!

How do i live without you ...

During the flash of the moment
when my eyes set upon you
not wating to miss even a span
to let go from my sight this man

Not knowing how i live
without thought of you
breathing in that air
along with memories of you

No sunshine all these days
no difference did it make
brought by you a ray of hope
love for you, in me i developed

Surviving is now too hard
without you my world is dark
baby, dont ever leave me
my life be like autumn tree ..!
Sunday, March 21, 2010

The Main Reason I Love You Is ....

Just tell me the reason, my dear heart,Why is it, we fell apart…..I went to the moon; u ran to the stars,What is the reason, we went so far…..Now that all things are, said & done,U called from the star & said, “Just for fun”;If it was for fun, then tell me dear,What is the thing u & I fear??What bout the days, months & years,We lived together, without any fear,What bout the days we laughed & cried,You even forgot, we had a “Smile!!”So I’ll like to end this small story,With a wish from my heart;I wish the moon & star get together,And hope that,“We never fell Apart!!

                              
                       Posted By - Shishir

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Never ever do these ..


Tum mere sath ho ..
tumhe koi soche kyun ?

Tum meri chahat ho
tumhe koi chahe kyun ?

Tum mera aina ho
tumhe koi dekhe kyun ?

Tum meri dua ho
tumhe koi mange kyun ?

Tum routh jao mujhse
aisa kabhi na karna


Main ek nazar ko tarsoon
aisa kabhi na karna

main pooch pooch haarun
sau sawal kar ke

Tum kuch jawab na do
aisa kabhi na karna

Mujh se he mil kar hasna
mujhe se he mil kar rona

Mujh se bicher kar jee lo
aisa kabhi na karna

Tum chand ban kar rehna
main dekhta rahunga

Kisi roz tum na nikalo
aisa kabhi na karna

Tum chale jao jab bhi
to dekhun tumhara rasta

Tum laut kar na aao
aisa kabhi na karna .........

                                                                          

                                                                                                                                                                             posted by- Shishir
Thursday, March 11, 2010

Thought of u...

Don’t know the reason why
Each time I think of u
My eyes begin to blurr
Coz of the tears rolling down thru’

The image of that shining chest
Blinking my memories
Not in one place my mind rests
Like in song, running around trees

I wonder and wonder
All trivial things on earth
End up crying on my bed
Not knowing if it’s worth

Y is my heart pumping so fast?
When my blood flows slowly
My limbs getting numb
With ur thots so heavenly!



                                    posted by- Shishir                                                                 

My innermost feelings...!


When i sit to pen down my thoughts
I get confused where to start
With brain crushed to extract my emotions
And the pierced feelings like darts.

As speed my memories travel
Even before the ink in my pen dries
They reach my love destination
To open the lids of your eyes

Jerking you from my dreams
Makes me vibrate from here
Whatever happens to you
From inner soul i shudder with fear

Laying down myself to sleep
With eyes wet by tears
But happy my heart feels
Like in front of me u appear!



                                                                                                      posted by- Shishir

A ray of hope...


Why is it always me?
To bear this undying pain
Does sorrow exist for free?
Or in life’s exam I failed?


Fighting through my tears
Controlling the frown on my face
Waiting for the moment to explode
Waiting the wash-out of this phase.


All the blood flow frozen
Stopping the beat of my veins
Craving to search for heaven
Tasting every drop of the rain.


Weeping morning, noon & night
Hoping from u, a sunlight
This silence is deafening
Wishing the last ray is in sight!



                                                                                               posted by- Shishir

My unconditional love...



I can walk on red hot coals for u
I can sleep on thorns for eternity too.
I can starve to death to see u smile
I can quench my thirst if u r fine!

But I can’t do what others do
To prove my love for u
But I have my stupid way
To make u smile everyday!

If others can bring u happiness
And carry u with joy untold
I’d die a thousand deaths
To call you as my own!

Each one’s love is her jewel
Decorating herself as she drew
My unconditional love is my asset
That I bear forever through!



                                                                                                    posted by- Shishir
Friday, March 5, 2010

The Silence...





"The silence is worth




More than a thousand lives,
This freedom worth
More than all the empires on earth.
To glimpse that truth within yourself,
For even just a moment, is worth
More than all heavens, all worlds,
All this, and all that."





Saturday, February 27, 2010

A Tear On My Pillow



When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you'll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye's... checking if my dream came true.
It didn't, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly... my pillow I hold.
Many sleepless nights I've prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
He's answered my prayers for my bride to be.
I've never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That's a question I asked each and every night.
He must think your special, Joy, and I know he's right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you... instead

                                                                              Posted by- Shishir
Saturday, February 20, 2010

Brain vs Heart

Love me with All your heart
But not with your Brain
Heart has feelings that never makes us depart
Brain is surrounded by voices that make relationship go in vain
Hear is pure
Brain is insecure
Heart is the place where God lives
Follow the advice the heart gives
Brain satisfies your worldly pleasures
Heart satisfies your inner pleasures
Brain confuses you with myths
Heart always presents the truth
Brain tells you "What will you get in return ?"
Heart tells you "Be selfish .. Don't expect anything in return "
Happiness Given by your brain fads away
Happiness Given by your heart lasts forever ....

                                                                                      posted by- Shishir

Friday, February 19, 2010

Please


Mene her rOz Dua mein tujhe manga hai,
Hun bewafa magr Wafa Se Tujhe Manga hai ~

Kabhi Sajde mein Ja ker Puchna apne rab Se ,
Mene kis kis ada Sey tujhe Manga Hai .. ~



                                                           
                                        Posted by - Shishir
Thursday, February 11, 2010

Kya Baat Hai .

Kitabo k panne palat ke sochta hai ,
Yun palat jaye zindagi to kya baat hai ...,

Tamanna jo puri ho khwabo me,
Haqiqat ban jaye to kya baat hai...,

Kuch log matlab ke liye duhndte hai mujhe ,
Bina matlab koi aaye to kya baat hai...,

Katal kar ke to sab le jayenge dil mere,
Koi baato se le jaye to kya baat hai ...,

Jo sharifo ki sharafat me baat na ho,
wo ek sharabi kah jaye to kya baat hai...,

Zinda rahne tak to khushi dunga sab ko,
Friday, January 22, 2010

Trying To Forget You


Up until now
I had so much to say
but it's everything I've said
that's gotten in my way

I won't talk about you
anymore to anyone
the time for that has passed
it's just over with and done

supposed-to-be forgotten words
are still dancing in my head
and I'm just trying to "not remember"
a single thing you've said

I wanna forget all about you
who you are and what your name is
cause it's causing so much pain
and I honestly can't take this ..
Friday, January 15, 2010

I just Cant ..


Yun Gawarah nahi Jeena Bin Tere Muje
Kyun hai Juda k0i tu Waja Bata De Muje,

Kuch aur nahi, tu Kar Itna Karam
Jahan Tu Yaad na aaye wo Jagah Bata De Muje ..

Tell me What Was My Fault ?



Where are you when I need you most?
You disappeared into the darkness
You left nothing behind but your memory
And for me to wait for you

Your heartfelt spirit is absent now
The smiles have wiped off the faces
Of the people you deserted here
You caused internal forever pain

I, the one you loved am crippled
Because of your sudden vacation
Your vacation that would last a lifetime
To a secret resort I will never know of

What made you decide to change your mind?
You made me feel I wasn't good enough for you
Maybe that is true, maybe it is not
But now, how will I ever know?

I have been trying to thrust your memory aside
So I could get on with my life
I have tried to love someone other than you
Yet, somehow you remain the main focus ..